Today in My History
"Into the Woods"
Books Read in 2015
Mirror Site for RSS
The New Brasilian in my life
(his video is here)
The Philosophy of Juice & Crackers
19 November 2015
Jon Carroll, a wonderful columnist for the San Francisco Chronicle, who retires this week after many decades of wonderful columns wrote a piece this morning called "Reality theater: Its joys and sorrows" which hit a chord with me. He reflects back over his time with the Chronicle and how his column evolved from
When he began to run out of material,
He began to get regular readers and started to feel they were part of his circle of friends and family to whom he was speaking when he wrote about his life, or his thoughts on the world in general, or his cat.
I looked back on nearly 16 years of Funny the World and reflected on how it began pretty much the way Carroll's did -- not having a clue what I was doing, but wanting to do something. The very first entry was easy. Ned had just moved into a playhouse his radio station erected on a 24 hour gas station in Sacramento to raise money for shoes for the homeless. I posted it and was off and running. But where...?
Over the coming weeks, I discussed watching animals on Africam, trying to learn how to write grants, a fraud scam that had been perpetrated using our credit card, The Lamplighters, gay kids, our new dog, and my first Oscar report ("totally tacky and I loved it")
From the beginning it has always been eclectic and over the years, people seem to have continued to follow it. I don't watch stats, so my only indication is from the guestbook comments I get, but in the days when I did check stats, there were more than 300 hits a day from around the world, and if that isn't heady stuff! You and I have shared my Weight Watcher years, various death watches (the most painful of which was Kathy's death in 2011), my mother's worsening dementia and Peach's cancer. You enjoyed all the foster dogs, my biking experiences (I got cheers when I conquered the "dreaded overpass"), loved hearing about Cousins Days, followed all of our vacations, and were there to offer a "there there" like yesterday, when I was in a mood. There are even those who enjoy "Today at Logos," which is why I continue to write it week after week.
Carroll talks about the change in human dynamic over the years, especially how it affects those of us "of a certain age."
These days, when you reach a certain point in your life, if you don't have in place a close group of friends to whom you can turn when in need, writing it all down helps.
Throughout my life I have had close circles of friends, but they gradually dissolve. Even the Pinata People aren't as close as we once were. I have lots of acquaintances with whom I have lunch or a coffee a few times a year and share our frustrations about the political scene, but none with whom I have curled up and cried as we shared secrets and wine, not since Kathy died. It's just not the same to choose an acquaintance at random and spill the sorrows and frustrations of your life. There is a certain "history" that needs to be in place before you feel comfortable doing that.
So I do it here. I was asked recently why it's such a passion of mine and, honestly, I can't tell you except I have this thing within me which needs to express what I'm feeling. I have all of my life, I think. I used to have half a dozen people with whom I corresponded and now other than Char, there is nobody...and if I can't share correspondence or buy a cheesecake and share it with a bunch of Golden Girls here in town, Funny the World is the next best thing. We each have our own way of coping with the stresses in our lives. If I could run to my mother and cry in her arms about how I'm feeling about Peach's impending death, for example, I would do it, but knowing that she doesn't respond that way any more leaves me hanging out to dry.
So Funny the World is more than my blog. It's my circle of "imaginary friends" (as a CompuServe friend used to call us) and my extended family. In the beginning I shared too much and by the time the Internet world started worrying about privacy, I was already an open book and there was no point in trying to be anonymous. I learned to edit myself, not to share everything, especially after a few things that upset my kids.
On Friday Walt and I have a meeting with a Kaiser counselor
to help us fill out Advanced Care Directives (which I have to have on file
before my cataract surgery next month). The form is 16 pages long and
much more involved than I realized. But one question "Life would no
longer be worth living if I were unable to...." stumped me a bit. I
realized that one of the things that makes life worth living for me, at this
point in my life, is being able to write Funny the World, which is
why I lug my heavy laptop around the world with me and get so frustrated
when Yahoo shuts me out for 2 days. It's my drug, I guess. It's
one of the things that make life worth living for me.
PHOTO OF THE DAY
"Ned Moves Into a Playhouse"
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